ugh im so done with school, who would of thought that 4th year was going to be hardest thing ever. why did i ever thing 4th year was going to be a cake walk?
uggh.. im so stressed out its ridiculous, im actually blogging that says something. on top of prelims this week i start my nmat review. nmat is actually the test to get into medicine. i dont even really know if i want to do it. thinking about all those years of school, and even at this point being a 4th year nursing student i think to myself like do i really want to do this like is this what i really want to do? or im i just going with the flow? is that even something i should be doing at this point. i mean i guess if you look at it im making a concious choice. im taking the review which means im choosing to take the test well atleast prepare for it and if i pass i guess its choosing to take medicine. uggh… prelims kicked my ass today, i feel like ive learned nothing when i read those questions and i was just going through the motions i wasnt even trying to really analyze i was just trying to finish. why does everything feel like a race? why is the stress only cathcing up to me now? its so crazy that i need a venti jolt just to get to class in the morning, that dosnt even compare to the endless amounts of caffine i consume through out the day. i feel like im just putting this weight on every one im not even contributing to society. idk, idk,fuck.